GRRR

I bought a scanner from this dude on Ebay. He said that it was used in an office with no problems. So you would think that means that it works, yes? NO! The damn thing won't even turn on. And of course since I bought it on Ebay, I didn't pay a fortune for it, but by the time you added shipping in with it, it was close to the amount I could have bought a new one for. Not happy.

Riding the Rail to Chicago.

It seems like all I blog about is my job and being (or lack there of) pregnant. Well, unfortunately this blog is no different but I have some other interesting stuff to relate also.

I have just taken a different job. I almost literally had a job fall in my lap that I could not resist. It is a 8-4:30 job, Monday through Friday, only weekends if I didn't get my work done during the week and no holidays. HOW can someone refuse that??? True I will be working 5 days a week, but it is a very flexible office and I can take off if I need off. When I worked 3 12's at the hospital it took me 5 days anyways to recover from the 3 I worked. I know, I'm a wimp but oh well. So I start this job very soon and I am so excited about it.

My kiddos just took a trip with my parents to Chicago. The cool thing about it is they rode the train from Fulton to Chicago, something that even I haven't done. They LOVED it. They were a little cranky today, mom and dad said, but they only got about 4 hours of sleep total last night. They took Anna to the American Girl store and bought her a new doll, which she was totally ecstatic about. They are going to come back down through Indy and they are going to take Gavin to the official Colts store there. He is a Manning freak. Although, he thinks (not without some feeding info from my dad) that my father is really "secretly" Peyton Manning. How he has him convinced of that, I have yet to figure out.

Not pregnant, but still working on it. I feel good about this month. Keep you posted.

Let the sun shine!

My mood has lightened up drastically. I do not hate everyone and everything, just most:-)! The job is going better, I think I might be able to handle it afterall. I decided that after my orientation it would be best if I went back to nights. I feel better on days, but for school and my kids, nights is better. School seems like it is going to be fine this semester, busy, but fine. Lots of papers for this semester, I hate papers.

I have decided that this month is going to be different in the baby arena. I still took my clomid, but it is going to be a totally different feel. No pressure and no moping if it doesn't happen. I think that has made me feel better already. Maybe my life is just to crazy for now, someone knows better than I.

The kids and I spent the weekend just hanging out. We went to the pool yesterday and I got fried. The water felt sooo good and we spent the day in splashing around. I think I am invincible when it comes to the sun and I rarely put on sunscreen. Hi, can you say skin cancer waiting to happen? I wish we had stuff around the area to do, but there really isn't anything. Bummer.

Much better week, thank you very much.

Down the Path to Self Pity

I am just taking a little walk down the self pity path. Won't you walk with me?

I have started my new job in the ICU at Lourdes, our local hospital. It seems to be a good job, although my new manager seems to think that I can work, oh whenever the hell she wants me to, no worries that I have two kids and an ex husband that I have to share them with. Also, I recently found out that the whole reason I went to ICU, the CRNA program, is now down the toilet. In order to be in the program you have to move to Madisonville, an hour and a half away from here, for 22 months. HELLO, I HAVE KIDS!!! So there is no chance for me to do that right now. And I would rather be doing something else in the hospital. So I am little bummed/pissed about that whole situation. My father says "Boy, why can't you and your sister ever be happy?" Maybe that is true, why can't I be happy???

Then, there is my awesome fertility status. According to my progesterone level, drawn a week ago, I ovulated. According to my uterus, I'm not pregnant. NICE. I mean for real, WTF. Everyone is so sure it is me being too anxious about it, or too fat or my favorite "a fertile couple only has a 1 in 17 chance of getting pregnant the first month." LOVE IT. How is that supposed to make me really feel better? I'm taking a break, and going on a diet. I'm tired of this infertility shit.

Sorry, I was in such a good mood tonight. Thanks for being such great friends and reading.

Changes...

Things have definately changed here lately. The biggest change, I think, is that I am going to work at a different hospital. We have two large hospitals in Paducah, 20 minutes away, and I am going to work at Lourdes. I wil be working in the ICU and I can totally not wait. I have been able to take care of ventilator patients but really that is all because we don't really deal with really critical patients at the hospital I am at. I will get to recover open heart surgery patients, help with hemodialysis and some other really cool stuff I have only just heard of. So big change, one that I am really excited about.

The next change is the fact that I have taken my first round of clomid this month. Hopefully this month, we will be pregnant. I am so tired of waiting and testing and all this other bull crap. I am ready.

The kids and I are starting school this month. They start in a week. I start the 18th of August. I am going to be finishing my BA in nursing, and then going on to be CRNA, if I get accepted. But I have at least 2 years of BA junk to do. So, I am excited about that too.

Lots to do, lots to do...

Gavin's Birthday party

Gavin turned 9 on July 4th. We had his party at the swimming pool on the 6th after a long weekend of family reunioning!!! It was such great fun. The kids didn' t know that they had that many relatives!! I am posting a few pics of party and reunion!

Kings Island

We went to Kings island for the kids birthdays this year instead of buying them a bunch of crap. It was such a good idea, and super nostalgic for me!!! I have been to Kings Island more times than I can remember, but I haven't been since my summer after I graduated. It was so nice to go back. Things had changed somewhat but the memories were still there. There was still the Viking ship, the Eiffel tower, the Racers, the Vortex and my favorite, White Water Canyon!! Of course that turned out to be the kids favorite ride too. And then there was the token butterflies in the stomach right when you are about to go down a huge hill or going up one too. I LOVE THAT PLACE! The kids did too. I love that I could share that with them.